or: OK! i get it! can we go back to uninteresting times already?
as I write this (April 3rd, 2026; just before midnight) i am, as ever, reminded of the sheer scale of the everything that is constantly being streamed to us. you’ll have to forgive me for my americentrism; i can only ruminate from this hole my fellow countrymen have been digging ourselves into for ages. but just over three months into the year, the sitting president has dispatched armed instigators into blue cities, killing with abandon & engaging in a terror campaign on immigrants, to extort them for voter registration rolls; escalated an ongoing boat-bombing murder spree (allegedly to further the war on drugs) in the Caribbean to kidnapping the president of Venezuela (in actuality to claim oil. go figure); and the current administration assassinated the leader of Iran in a grossly foolish attempt to enact regime change (in actuality ALSO to claim oil. fuck off) and blew up a fucking school while they were at it. and has since resorted to first responder-targeting strikes on civilian infrastructure. you know, terrorist shit. not that it fucking matters, but this has all obviously been done without congressional approval AND we’re still fucking somehow losing. awesome. even the non-justifications offered by the government are unachieved.
oh, and don’t forget that at each of these stages ridiculous “prediction markets” (read: online betting rings) have been leveraged by insiders close to the government to profit off of the USA’s bald-faced warmongering. if war wasn’t profitable enough.
at least Artemis II made it out of development hell. the pictures are beautiful. from 150k miles up it almost feels like all of it is insignificant. which is great because i’m still fucking down here living through it!!!!! gfod damn!!!! not even going to fix that typo.
this is a common sentiment amongst my age group, and i apologize for retreading VERY trodden ground, but GOD DAMN it feels like it has been a decade of non-stop stuff happening. disastrous presidency after disastrous presidency. a coup. the pandemic. graduating into one of the worst economies in my lifetime.
i should be at the point where i can take life by the reins, be independent. but every day i feel worse, like i’m dealing with a lingering sickness that just will not go away. and it feels like life won’t ever start.
i like to write posts that have a point or idk an uplifting message tagged onto the end of them. but i don’t see it. sorry. i am very tired. i’d like to go to bed.
> i should be at the point where i can take life by the reins, be independent. but every day i feel worse, like i’m dealing with a lingering sickness that just will not go away. and it feels like life won’t ever start.
Ough, I feel this, too, more and more with each passing week.