{"id":254,"date":"2026-06-10T08:19:46","date_gmt":"2026-06-10T14:19:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/?p=254"},"modified":"2026-06-10T08:32:48","modified_gmt":"2026-06-10T14:32:48","slug":"i-have-only-hugged-my-mom-once","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/?p=254","title":{"rendered":"i have only hugged my mom once."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">(when it counted.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">you would think in over two decades of time<br>i would have done more for the woman who raised me<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">that a thing so simple as an embrace would be easy<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">it&#8217;s not, i suppose. i couldn&#8217;t tell you why<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">my mom has only cried once.<br>(in front of me.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">are we both walled gardens, cloistered women, forbidden cities<br>with veils so impassable that only the mightiest surges of emotion might break through the surface<br>grief towering like a wave<br>so powerful i still feel its reverberations today<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and instead of speaking we mourn, quiet, alone<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i hope one day<br>i will be brave enough<br>to hug you<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(when it counted.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[24,29,33],"class_list":["post-254","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-family","tag-grief","tag-parents"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/254","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=254"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/254\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":264,"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/254\/revisions\/264"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=254"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=254"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/xfebruary.fyi\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=254"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}